To say I am at a major crossroad in my life is putting it mildly. It's more of a super fork in the road of my life. I have five different options for what this fall could bring into my life. None of them are easy. I could see my self executing any of the paths. I could see myself content in all of the paths. This is what makes the decision SOOOO incredibly difficult.
In these next few weeks I will have some serious growing pains. No matter which route I choose I want you to stand with me. I need the support of my own community no matter where in the world I am. Part of me, and I would consider it a large part, wants to just create a poll and let you all decide for me. I know that is not the right way to do this. I need to make this decision myself, but I feel as if I am in such a fragile state at the moment.
Sometimes it feels like we are at a dead end. No doors, or even windows available. Life suffocating us. But today I stand here at this crossroad with many amazing options and no road map with a highlighted route. This time in my life I'm not sure which is worse. No options or too many options!
It's amazing how we can feel so certain about our future and then the Good and Gracious God we serve opens so many windows and doors. I really hope this does not come across as complaint, because I am feeling very blessed in this moment. I have options at a time when many people have nothing. I have a community that will support me no matter my decision. I have people that will miss me if I leave. I have people who will welcome me with open arms if I come.
ABBA, Father, Daddy, Lord.... thank you, thank you, thank you! I am overwhelmed to tears. You have given me so much I am bursting at the seams. I have been blessed beyond measure. You are a provider like no other. May I continue to follow your Word as it is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path (Psalm 119:105). May I remain confident in you and have patience to wait upon you (Psalm 27). No matter my decision may I take joy in your provisions and grace. Blessed are you, oh Lord. May we take great pride in having you as our eternal Father. Hallelujah, amen and amen.
Friends and Family, Will you please continue to ask our Gracious Father to give me great strength and discernment in the coming weeks as decisions are made. The final path may not be decided until sometime in late August, but I will have to either choose or close some doors within the next three weeks. I thank our God regularly for the great comfort he has given me in my community and that includes you. So thank you and know you are appreciated!
